Wednesday, February 6, 2013

I want to break free!!!

Sometime I wonder, how things that come so easily to some are so difficult for others.
How you can't do a thing, that others have been doing effortlessly.

One such thing for me is to close my eyes, look the other way and pretend I did not see. And it seems to be the default way for so many, to shrug and say, not my business, not my concern. And often, for their own work, 'I didn't realize I had to do this'.
I wish I could do this, to just be concerned with my work. I notice, that everything, that I cannot see being wrongly done and do a voluntary act to correct, becomes my work. I get bogged down by work, which wasn't mine in the first place. I can see it impacting my work, but I know no other way to live!!!

And the other thing is to give up. I have a job, that I like and used to love. Sometimes, it becomes such a drag and I am left to wonder why can't I just give up, just say I quit. Why do I need to fight every battle. Why can't I just say this is stupid, and insane, but I won't fight it either. I so wish I had either a much higher tolerance to non-sense or I could just turn my back and walk away from it all...

Perhaps, some day, I will learn to live... 

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